Sweet angel who watches over us  / Sarah Johnson (cousin)
Dear Ale

I don't know if your mom told you or not but she gave me a bunch of your stuff to make a memorial scrapbook for you.  It has definitely been a tough project to get through.  There has been smiles tears laughter sadness.  I see all of your pictures and poems and it brings such joy to my heart remembering you and all the times we were together.  I remember that day you left us and it makes me sad but I know your path led you to God and that you had more important work to do in heaven.

I know you're looking down on all of us and watching over us like you did when you were here.  We all miss you so terribly much and you and your life will never be forgotten.  You continue to live in our hearts thoughts prayers and memories.

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What a beautiful Angel you have, I lost my son...  / Barb Krzenski (my angel is with her now )

I just lost my son 11/15/2008, he too was a senior in high school and had just turned 18 11/10/2008.  He passed away in his sleep, like your Ale.  It was a weekend, so I had assumed he was just sleeping in, as he often did on Saturdays.  When he did not come down for lunch, I found him in his bed.  He had passed away sometime during the night, so we had no hope of CPR working.

Jordan was a very popular boy, and very involved in soccer, he had plans to play for a local college next fall and was an avid outdoorsmen.  We were so excited for his graduation, he was an honor student and was working very hard in school.  His passing was a total shock to us.  He had no signs or symptoms of any heart arrhythmia problem.  However, when he was little, he was diagnosed with allergy induced Asthma, and took claritan seasonally, he was highly allergic to tree pollen, so you can imagine the impact that it had on his life as he absolutely love to fish.  Other then that and an ankle sprain, a broken tibia, nothing major, he never complained about 'racing heart beat' or 'dizziness' etc... Jordan was healthy, never missing more then 2 or 3 days of school a year.  He was named all conference goalie for soccer and also had played in the All Star Game.  By all accounts he was fit, strong and healthy.

What hurts the most is that we did not know what had happened, there were no signs, he had no heart issues.  His doctor immediately said he thought it was a heart arrhythmia.  The police searched and searched for his phone, but could not find it.  Jordan was a big texter and they thought it might give them a clue.  I had talked to him a lot that night back and forth, and said good night to a seemingly healthy, smiling boy at midnight.  Two nights later I sat up, we were all sleeping on the couch, and went up to his room, I opened the door to his sisters room, and on his sisters bed was his big pillow, he never slept on it, but next to it, in the pillow was his cell phone, fully charged and on.  I read the texts he sent that night before he went to bed to a friend.  They said his heart was 'racing' and it was 'beginning to hurt' but being 18 and not having heard much of SADS, if anything at all, Jordan figured it had been a long day and might be due to 'stress' he had had 3 big tests and a research paper due coming up.  So he assumed that by laying down and resting, his heart would correct itself and he would wake up fine the next day.  I found him, curled up, just like he was sleeping, in fact, I thought he was playing a trick on me and would jump up to scare me.  When I touched his shoulder, it was cold.  Doctors tell me he probably passed away quickly after he laid down, his room was right next to his sisters and they did not hear a sound from him.  They said he did not struggle.

Autopsy found toxicology to be negative, Jordan was a good boy, he did not drink or do drugs.  They also concluded 'natural' causes as they could not find anything wrong, other then the arrhythmia signs.  Doctors told me when your heart gets into to fast a rythm, it does not pump well, and there was some fluid build up in my son's lungs.  They are now doing genetic testing on tissue samples, but I am told being its after the fact, it is hard to see what went on.  My daughters and I all under went the 'standard' tests, EKG, ECHO and stress tests and came back as normal.  However Im still living in fear for my daughters, as Im told those tests do not catch everything.  My youngest daughter sleeps all the time, she is 14 and as soon as she gets home from school, soccer, dance, she takes a nap.  Im very concerned about this, but they tell me not to worry, doctors think it could be depression due to losing Jordan, but she has been like this for the past few years, last year we even had her tested for mono?

Thank you so much for telling Ale's story, I wish Jordan would of seen it.  For that reason I am telling Jordan's story, to anyone who will listen.  We have done a few newspaper articles and there are events scheduled to honor him, where we do talk about SADS.  One of his friends was diagnosed with Wolf-Parkinson-Whitte, after we lost Jordan.  I miss my son so badly, I still cry every day.  He came to me about 2 weeks after we lost him, I could not talk to him or move, I was afraid he would leave, he stood in the doorway of my room, his head hung low, it was so sad.  But my friends tell me he was not sad himself, he was sad for me.  We were so close, I often feel his presence and feel reassured, I know he is now an angel in heaven.

Sorry this is so long, I was so moved by your beautiful Ale, I wanted you to know about my son.  We need to keep talking about SADS.  The devasation it causes is great, and by talking we can educate and hopefully help someone else.

http://www.jordantucker.com is my son's website.

Sincerely,

Barbara Krzenski/ Jordan Tucker's mom

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HAPPY VALENTINES SWEET ANGEL..  / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER FOREVER (FEV. 14, 2009 )
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Happy Christmas from heaven....  / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGL KAYLA XAVIER 4EVER (DEC.22,2008)
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For Kim...  / Maureen Mason-Mom To Courtney Riley
Hi Kim. I have felt from the beginning, an attraction to Ale's site because, for some strange reason, it seems like our daughters are connected. I don't know how because I came across it by accident, but now i have an even stronger feeling and I would very much appreciate it if I could ask you some questions by email, because some of these are private and not really for the general public to hear. Some of them have to do with Ale's condition and my daughter's autopsy results. Email me when you can please. Thank you so much for the help and support you've given me already, and as always, I pray for your angel along with mine everyday. God bless you! Close

The loss of a child....  / Maureen Mason (Mom to an Angel )

My daughter, Courtney Riley, died unexpectedly a few weeks ago. We still do not have a definitive cause of death for her. Her autopsy was inconclusive and I pray we find some answers. There is nothing like a parent losing their child. I have been comforted in the time that she has passed by many people, and this site, and others like you, who have lost their children or siblings, have helped me and my family cope with our loss.

There is so much love here and your beautiful Ale seemed to be brimming with it! She reminds me so much of my baby, i just had to leave a message. God bless your family and may god rest the soul of the lovely Alejandra!

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thank you ale <3  / Britanie Sattler

ale

You have never met me but you have saved my life. As I am getting ready to start my senior year i jsut wanted to let you know how thankful i am that you saved my life and it is because of you i will continue to live my life , and that i am aware of my condition. I really wish we could have met because you sound like an amazing girl.

Thank you ale <3

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miss you girl  / Haley Hotchkiss (friend)

Ale Cat-

whats up girl-still missing you lots.  I went to lunch with your mom last weekend-it was so great to see her.  We caught up on so many things...I had a baby girl born on April 21-her name is Aleigha Sue...But we like to call her Ale.  Well, thats all for now, think about you every day!  You know that though...love you girl!

Love always and forever-

Haley

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clay and cindy  / Cindy Hicks (friend)

I had the great honor, to spend a month down in  Tucumon, Argentina with Ale and her family.  In that short amount of time, I could see how beautiful Ale was.  Ale had a huge happy spirit and wanted everyone to be happy. It was great to see how supportive her family was with one another.  Clay and I had the time of our lives with the Capdevila family.  We have let time go by and we have not really kept in touch, but we still think of them fondly.            

 

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so touching  / Nikki (A Touched Stranger )
i found this memorial site by accident.  i just lost my cousin, my best friend, my everything!  she was 25 years old and just died in her sleep as well.  the autopsy reports are inconclusive.  she died of "natural causes" which doesn't make sense to me.  theres nothing natural about a young person just dying for no reason.  while searching for answers that the coroner wasn't able to give us i found this site and it has offered me so much comfort!

it hurts to know anyone else has gone/will go through this pain and the feeling of an unknown and sudden death like this.  but, i'm happy to get to read about others and try to find some clarity through it all.

Ale was truly an amazing girl!  that is very clear from this site.  so giving, so caring, so loving....so much to be proud of.  and to top off the amazing heart & soul she has, those beautiful sparkling eyes & stunning smile.  its like they give you a sneak peak at the beautiful person she is on the inside.

i love reading about Ale visiting in your dreams & as a bird.  you have no idea how comforting that can be to a complete stranger!  i hope my cousin does the same.

i hope you all are holding strong & keeping her memory alive. 
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TE RECUERO SIEMPRE!  / Connie Teran (amiga y hermana de alma )
Te recuerdo y hoy mas que nunk... Un año mas y cada alegria q marcas. Gracias x toda tu ayuda en todos mis momentos.... Tenes una gran familia y seguro t fuiste orgullosa de eso.. NADIE TE OLVIDA!!!. Close

Hi Sunshine  / Cecilia (Aunt)
Hey Ale,

A bird comes and visits me every year about this time. She sits on my porch bench and taps away at the window. I know it's you coming to visit. I know it's you because you won't leave until I say "hello Ale". Always wanting attention. 
Gail saw you last year as you were tapping away.  She was in shock! "I have never seen a bird do that. I bet that's Ale coming to visit you" It's so amazing I didn't even have to tell her it was you. She knew. She loves you too!
I miss you sunshine. I know your watching over us; but could you please keep an extra watch over Max? Maybe tap on his window?
Love you
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Angel Ale  / Lindsey (Big sister )
Hey ale, so its the year all your friends turn 21 and you as well. Today being your buddy wade's 21st i just wanted to take a minute to ask you to especially watch over all your friends as they party tonight, and every other 21st birthday this year. I know you wish you were there to party as well, but you now play a much more important role as thier gaurdian angel and i know you will do your best to keep them safe. I know they will be thinking of you and I hope you are their to guide them into making the right and safe choices for tonight and as they continue to grow older and wiser. I know you already know  all this, because like me, we both know everything, but i just had to write a note for eyes to see. I miss you so much and not a day goes by where i dont take a moment to look at your smile. I love you sissy.

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JUST SAYIN I LOVE YOU!  / Jordan Mason (GOOD FRIEND )
HEY ALE'S FAMILY AND FRIENDS IT IS JORDAN MASON, I AM JUST STOPPING BY TO SAY I MISS ALE, AND I LOVE ALL OF YOU, NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT I DONT THINK ABOUT YOU! LOVE

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To Alejandra.....  / Carrie Webster ((Visitor))


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Se me ha estremecido el corazón  / Carolina
La historia de Ale por lo que he podido ver es de una chica feliz, llena de vida, con una luz en la mirada que hacia presajiar lo buena persona que era.
Me extraño ver la palabra Argentina entre sus fotos, quiza ella estubo alli? Yo soy Rosarina.
Creo que esto es muy injusto, desde ya os brindo todo mi cariño a su familia.
Carol



No llores si me amas ...

Si conocieras el don de Dios

y lo que es el cielo...

Sí pudieras oír el

cántico de los ángeles

y verme en medio de ellos...

Si pudieras ver desarrollarse ante tus ojos

los horizontes, los campos y los nuevos

senderos que atravieso...

Si por un instante pudieras contemplar como yo

la belleza ante la cual las bellezas palidecen...

¡Cómo!... ¡Tú me has visto, me has amado

en el país de las sombras

y no te resignas a verme y amarme

en el país de las inmutables realidades?

Creéme. Cuando la muerte venga

a romper las ligaduras

como ha roto las que a mí me encadenaban;

cuando llegue el día que Dios ha fijado y conoce,

y tu alma venga a este cielo

en el que te ha precedido la mía...

Ese día volverás a verme.

Sentirás que te sigo amando, que te amé,

y encontrarás mi corazón

con todas sus ternuras purificadas.

Volverás a verme en transfiguración, en éxtasis feliz.

Ya no esperando la muerte,

sino avanzando conmigo,

que te llevaré de la mano por los senderos

nuevos de luz y vida.

Enjuga tu llanto y no llores si me amas.



San Agustín Numidia - África 354-430


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Just thinking of you  / Dominique Deery
Hey Ale,
I've been thinking about you a lot. I remember how my parents took my car away right before the musical and you gave me rides all the time.  You were the first person I told that I was going to have another little sister and i'll never forget how excited you were for me.  I remember all the time we spent together during the musical and how we'd hug and wish eachother good luck right before the curtain opened. I remember how you gave me a huge pep talk when i totally screwed up at dress rehearsal. I loved talking to you and laughing with you. 
I can't believe what an impact you have on everyone you knew.  Even if you barely knew someone you made such an impact on them.  I remember that when I was in seventh grade I thought you were so cool :) One of the teachers asked me if I was related to you because she thought we looked alike...I swear it made my day.  
I wish that we could have gone to lunch and gotten chinese food like you wanted to (you always knew how to make people feel better) and you were the first person I wanted to tell when I got asked to prom. 
Ale, you are a good person and everyone misses you so much.  I know that you are up in heaven watching over everyone you loved, especially your wonderful family.  I'm so sorry that you can't be here with us, but I know you have a front row seat and that you are watching everything with a smile on your face, because I know that you probably just want everyone to be happy.  I see so much of you in the people who you loved.   You are everywhere.  
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la recuerdo y hoy mas que nunca  / Constanza Teran (Amiga)

Bueno quizas el tiempo hizo que recien pueda eescribir....Ale se fue hace mucho pero que se yo, hoy  les cuento carlos y kim que la recorde como nunca....Se quee siempre estará presente en todos. Por su alegría constante, por su dulzura y sobre todo por demostrar ese "ANGEL" que tenia dentro.  Por eso creo que siempre la sentimos....fue reealmente un angel en la tierra y lo sigue sindo desde el cielo. 
Yo solo quiero decirles que al entrar en esta pagina me di cuenta de que si significo alg para mi en el poco tiempo que compartimos juntas ella y yo. Realmente su amistad significo y lo digo desde lo mas profundo de mi corazon... Fue una excelente "amiga, compañera, hija, hermana y humano.".

M interesa que sepan que en varios momentos de mi vida su recuerdo se viene a mi mente , pero en todos los segundos de mi existencia se que acompaña.
La verdad ya no se como expresar lo q ella mee hizo sentir hoy. Solo quiero que recuerden, que aunque tampoco los conozco mucho a uds (kim, ale, lin and nick) MI PAPA Y MI MAMA me hicieron respetarlos como una familia. Siganlon sieendo que es eso los que los caracteriza.
Carlos: por si no receurdan quien soy. Soy connie la hija de juan carlos teran y ana eestefa de TUCUMAN- ARGENTINA.
YO QUIEN ALGUNA VEZ TUVO LA DICHA DE CONOCER A UN ANGEL LLAMADO "ALE"

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She's Beautiful!  / Lori A. (Someone who is touched by this beautiful young woman ... )
To Ale's family:

Of all the memorials that I have read I must say this one has touched me deeply. I was in tears as I read her story because in the words of her mother I could see myself. 

I lost my "Aly" on August 31, 2005. She too just "died".  Her little brother found her in what appeared to be a seizure at her father's home in Mesa, Arizona. By the time her father called me at my office in Tucson, she was gone. The drive to the hospital seemed like it took forever. Alyssa was a "hot shot" firefighter in Curlew WA and had suffered seizure like activity on the fire line. She flew home to Arizona to see her physician and fearing dismissal from her dream job she didn't tell her pedatrician (who had cared for her since the day she was born) the whole story of what happened. It ultimately cost her her life. 

Like your Ale, my Aly was a basketball player holding many school titles. She was offered a full-ride scholarship to the University of Arizona but opted for the fire fighting academy instead. 

I have never heard of SAD but I am going to read up on it. To this day, I cannot post a picture of my daughter on her site because it's just so painful for me to look at her. I will say that she too was quite beautiful. Aly radiated from the inside - out. 

Thank you for sharing this glorious child with us. It's heart breaking to me that since we're strangers it takes something like this to bring us together. 

God Bless you.

Lori A. 

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Thinking of you  / Jill Krasuski (Childhood friend )
This says what I wanted to say better than I ever could:

I want to tell you about something very special that happened today...
Somewhere in between the busy morning rush and the calm afternoon quiet, a warm and comforting thought of you came to keep me company. 
And before I knew it, I was smiling...
Thinking about happy times we've had...
Thinking about what it means to know you, 
What a warm feeling it brings to share a moment with you in thought.
I know this won't be the only time this happens...
Because I think of you so often, and because you always bring a smile.
But somehow, today, thinking of you made the day so special I just had to tell you. 
~Ellen Brenneman

So many things make me think of you but one of my gymnasts reminds me so much of you when we were little. Strangely enough, her name is Allie. (And even stranger, she looks like Kolby.) Everytime I'm with her I can't help but smile and think of you.

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